Friday, April 27, 2012

4/27/12

Songs I Can't Listen to Sometimes 

These are songs that, even though I love them, I just press "next." I'm guessing you, reader, understand. You have those songs too. I challenge you to listen, purge, experience. Feels kind of refreshing.

 1)Now That You're Gone The saddest of the sad on "Cold Roses," in my humble opinion. It's a simple, sweet melody, but it doesn't take much for me after I hear this song to desperately crave a man with kind eyes and strong arms to hold me and never let me go, because the song heralds all the loneliness you could ever feel for one person in one night. It's the love song for the one who left you, and I can't handle that sometimes. Or anytime. I've been left too much, and done too much of my own leaving, to let Ryan Adams remind me of how sad I am about it all.


"Everything you ever touched is undisturbed and hangs out/Like crime scene evidence undisturbed in dust I don't dare touch anything because it's evidence of us/And it means everything/Well sort of/I'm alone and I'm dancin', with you now/In your old room, in your old house/I'm alone and I'm dancin', with you now, in your old room, but there's nobody there"
~Now That You're Gone
Ryan Adams and the Cardinals, Cold Roses

2)Hear You Me
I loved this song real hard in high school, then I lost someone I loved. I needed to believe in angels because I still need to believe she's happy, somewhere, and I can't hear this song because it makes me think of her too much. Then I think of all the other people I love, and how desperately I need them to know that before life takes them from me, too. In any way, gorgeous song, but I don't listen to it anymore. Just easier not to.  
"on sleepless roads the sleepless go may angels lead you in" 
 ~Hear You Me
Jimmy Eat World, Bleed American

3)Girl in the War
Beautiful song. Probably my favorite Josh Ritter song, hands down, even though I've come to embrace a lot of his catalog. Something about this song just breaks me, just makes me feel something that brings me back to a place I'll never be again. So I don't want to listen to it, because I miss that place, with its subways and rainy days, its romance and pavement and prowess.
 
"Because the keys to the kingdom got locked inside the kingdom/And the angels fly around in there, but we can't see them/And I got a girl in the war, Paul I know that they can hear me yell/If they can't find a way to help, they can go to Hell/If they can't find a way to help her, they can go to Hell" 
~Girl in the War
Josh Ritter, The Animal Years

4)Baker, Baker
Simply a favorite. Incredible song, but I still press next, because it makes me want to cry. Or call people who aren't in my life anymore. It makes me want to reach out for what isn't there hold. It makes me crumble in ways I'm not always equipped to deal with when driving home from work or the grocery store or whatever. Tori is so soft, so sentimental in this song, it's so contrasting to so much of what else she does, but it stills me in a frightening way.
   
"I guess you've heard he's gone to LA/He says that behind my eyes I'm hiding and he tells me I pushed him away/That my heart been's hard to find/Here, there must be something here/Here, there must be something here" 
~Baker Baker
Tori Amos, Under the Pink

5)Konstantine 
I don't even think I have a version of this on a hard drive anywhere. I just don't listen to it anymore. Was it even that good? Listening to it now, I feel a little older, I feel a little beyond it, but it still makes me want to make out like a teenager. It still makes me want to reach out for someone, anyone, I feel like understands me, knows me, wants to know me and need me.
  "and if I hurt you then I'm sorry please don't think that this was easy"
~Konstantine
Something Corporate